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UnboundMelissa's avatar

This was beautifully written. I cannot say it well enough how well you put into words so much of what I’m feeling right now. Thank you for putting it out there, for being brave and saying it. For creating a space online where I’m not afraid to interact or where I’m afraid of not being welcome. Thank you.

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Kacie M.'s avatar

I could have written almost every word, except the flu part. Yes, sister. And also, you get to have a political opinion, even a strong one, and be as disturbed as you are. You don’t have to mellow it, make it digestible or understandable to others. Some people will never understand or agree. I find it hard to hold on to my strong thoughts, so I’m saying to you what I’m saying to myself this week. Writing it all out on Substack helped.

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Becky Everson's avatar

Thank you for your words today

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Parchment Paths Emilly's avatar

Thank for putting into written word a lot of what I have been thinking and feeling but haven't been able to express.

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Nicole Eckerson's avatar

Yes. I don't have the words but this helps.

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Tasha's avatar

Such a lovely read. I wonder all the time how so many Christians are so incredibly blind to all this that is taking place in our country. My prayer is that despite this atrocity that those of us who do see/know truth, the “black sheep’s” of politics who have no real party are able to rise up and not be silent. To rise above the fear and show people what God’s love looks like. It’s one of the reasons I am so grateful to be homeschooling my kids. To be raising them in truth thus being God’s love, welcome all to the table and our lives.

Thanks for sharing!

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Rachel Petrosky's avatar

I’m someone who left the church years ago for the very reasons you mentioned. Deconstruction can be scary but there’s a whole community of people online with the same fears and thoughts. I don’t pray anymore but I still follow Jesus’ teachings. Love your neighbor, take care of the poor, do unto others. White, Christian nationalism that has taken over the church is anti American and anti Jesus. The Pharisees have taken over but we still stay true to ourselves and live out Jesus’ teachings

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Emily Cernoia Barkley's avatar

‘I imagine a world where a sitting president calls out a man making a Nazi gesture (on purpose or otherwise) instead of vilifying a gentle bishop in church.’ AMEN

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KelticKat63's avatar

Thank you for this today! You put down some of my exact thoughts. So I will dry tears - pull my weary body from the sofa and see what I as one person can accomplish by sharing love with others today.

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CCMartin's avatar

Yes. I feel the truth of this. We are grieving, but still hold on to Jesus for hope. I keep telling myself to live my small life here at home, to love my family and community, to be the hands and feet of Jesus to those around me, and to pray for the disaster unfolding in our country. Hang on to hope.

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deerheartslyfox's avatar

Thank you for sharing this, Breanna. This summed up the grief I cannot yet put into actual words.

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Part 2 Of Your (Love?) Life's avatar

I'm in the UK and realise I have limited knowledge of what's happening in America but if there are more there feeling and expressing views such as you do, it makes me hopeful.

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Megan Meyer's avatar

It’s as if you’re in my head, writing out exactly how I feel. Thank you for this. Truly. Thank you. I was venting to my husband this morning about the hateful “Christians” and the fact that the world is literally on fire, and when I finally paused my rant, I sighed and said “so we continue to feed the birds (we’re working toward being a wildlife habitat) we tend what we’ve been given to tend because that’s what we CAN do.” And the other day I was thinking of how it was out of the dark chaos God created life…. And how we are co-creators with him on Earth, we can sow life in the darkness too. And then I saw a post on IG saying out of the chaos comes life - a confirmation of this truth. I’m exhausted. So exhausted. But I have hope that life comes out of the dark chaos.

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Paula Casill's avatar

I connected with this on so many levels ❤️

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Breanne Rodgers's avatar

It's good to know we're not alone in navigating this.

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Charlotte's avatar

Thank you for writing this and giving words to exactly how I am feeling right now. I'm stuck in that place of how do I tend to what I can impact and control, how do I not bury my head in the sand, but how do I maintain my sanity and my focus on Christ. I love your mantra and will be carrying it with me as we move forward: Be careful. Pay attention. You have to slow down. This is dangerous. You don’t want to hurt yourself or someone else.

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Breanne Rodgers's avatar

I'm right there in that same place too. I think it comes down to asking, "What's one thing I can taken action on today?" or "Is consuming this fire hose of information going to make more or less effective to help people?" and adjusting accordingly. It's tough out there. ❤️

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