Love this Breanne. I’m behind on my reading with all my outdoor projects and your words give me some peace in knowing there are others who think the same way I do.
Keep writing. However lonely your song feels it is heard by a few others!
I too struggle monthly with what should be a normal cycle of hormones and health becomes this body breaking, mind twisting chronic health issue. I get hemiplegic migraines and my anxiety and depression spike. Trying to move through it all is exhausting. You are not alone!
“Maybe it’s not the “woke agenda” hindering the work of God in the world. Maybe it’s those who use the hunt for it as a way to dehumanize and ostracize fellow image-bearers that’s doing the real damage.” — have felt this way for a while, thank you for putting it into these beautiful words! Love this post.
I too am struggling with having so little to show for my almost 35 year old self. It’s been actually incredibly hard for me this year for some reason… almost to the point of grieving. I don’t understand it. Is it midlife crisis???
I recently put myself out there and I knew it was something that wasn’t going to be accepted but when it wasn’t even though I was prepared for it, it positively broke my heart. I haven’t been able to put words to it… your sister summed it up perfectly. I read it and was like that, that is what I am feeling.
I am so weary this year. Of trying to find life and beauty and hope. In the middle of a culture at war. Can we please just all take a time out and say we’re sorry and play nice with each other again??
Your words are a balm to my soul. Honestly, they feel like you have been reading my mind because ALL OF THIS is exactly how I've been feeling. So very weary. It baffles me. This paragraph you wrote: "I need God to find me in circumstances that haven’t resolved in over a decade. I need God to find me in a diagnosis that can’t be cured, only managed. I need God to find me when going to church doesn’t feel safe because the insidious tentacles of patriarchal power structures seem to slither underneath and underpin everything. I’m thankful the curtain is being ripped down that hid these toxic systems for so long, and I also fear who else will be revealed as untrustworthy next. " is EXACTLY (!!!) how I've been feeling too. Also the part about praying God sends His rain -- yes and Amen. Like I started out here, ALL OF what you wrote. Thank you for this. <3
Thank you for taking the time to send this encouragement my way. You're not alone! I keep having to remind myself that God is working His justice by bringing all of this to the light but it can be heartbreaking to live through.
That is a good reminder, one I need to keep reminding myself. His restoration is underway...but just like a home restoration, there's a lot of hard work and uncomfortable messiness that has to happen first.
Bre, I feel we are both going through similar seasons ... gosh and just journeys altogether. Every part of what you wrote today felt so close to my own heart and inner thoughts (or more like inner battles towards the western church and how far we seem to have drifted). Thank you for sharing. It helped me feel less alone in this crowded, raucous world. I hope even my simple comment here helps you also feel less alone.
It definitely did help me feel less alone, thank you! The world can feel crowded and loud. It wears me out. But I know the act of gently defying it through my words and actions is something I don't want to give up on. Thanks for the encouragement! I'm glad you're here ❤️
That movie took my breath away! I cried, but I held back from the ugly crying I felt coming on for the sake of my kid 😅 I might need to see it again by myself and just let that movie heal me a bit.
Love this Breanne. I’m behind on my reading with all my outdoor projects and your words give me some peace in knowing there are others who think the same way I do.
Keep writing. However lonely your song feels it is heard by a few others!
I too struggle monthly with what should be a normal cycle of hormones and health becomes this body breaking, mind twisting chronic health issue. I get hemiplegic migraines and my anxiety and depression spike. Trying to move through it all is exhausting. You are not alone!
I’m going to have to check out Inside Out 2!
“Maybe it’s not the “woke agenda” hindering the work of God in the world. Maybe it’s those who use the hunt for it as a way to dehumanize and ostracize fellow image-bearers that’s doing the real damage.” — have felt this way for a while, thank you for putting it into these beautiful words! Love this post.
Ok I need to watch that movie pronto.
I too am struggling with having so little to show for my almost 35 year old self. It’s been actually incredibly hard for me this year for some reason… almost to the point of grieving. I don’t understand it. Is it midlife crisis???
I recently put myself out there and I knew it was something that wasn’t going to be accepted but when it wasn’t even though I was prepared for it, it positively broke my heart. I haven’t been able to put words to it… your sister summed it up perfectly. I read it and was like that, that is what I am feeling.
I am so weary this year. Of trying to find life and beauty and hope. In the middle of a culture at war. Can we please just all take a time out and say we’re sorry and play nice with each other again??
You're definitely not alone in navigating and processing all of this. I think many of us are feeling this way. Life can be really weird sometimes.
I'm sorry you experienced the heartbreak of being responded to in a way that didn't make you feel accepted. That sounds really hard.
And yes, I'm weary of watching people shred one another in the name of "speaking truth". I simply don't have the stomach for it anymore.
Definitely watch the movie if you can, I truly think it'll be something you enjoy!
Your words are a balm to my soul. Honestly, they feel like you have been reading my mind because ALL OF THIS is exactly how I've been feeling. So very weary. It baffles me. This paragraph you wrote: "I need God to find me in circumstances that haven’t resolved in over a decade. I need God to find me in a diagnosis that can’t be cured, only managed. I need God to find me when going to church doesn’t feel safe because the insidious tentacles of patriarchal power structures seem to slither underneath and underpin everything. I’m thankful the curtain is being ripped down that hid these toxic systems for so long, and I also fear who else will be revealed as untrustworthy next. " is EXACTLY (!!!) how I've been feeling too. Also the part about praying God sends His rain -- yes and Amen. Like I started out here, ALL OF what you wrote. Thank you for this. <3
Thank you for taking the time to send this encouragement my way. You're not alone! I keep having to remind myself that God is working His justice by bringing all of this to the light but it can be heartbreaking to live through.
That is a good reminder, one I need to keep reminding myself. His restoration is underway...but just like a home restoration, there's a lot of hard work and uncomfortable messiness that has to happen first.
Bre, I feel we are both going through similar seasons ... gosh and just journeys altogether. Every part of what you wrote today felt so close to my own heart and inner thoughts (or more like inner battles towards the western church and how far we seem to have drifted). Thank you for sharing. It helped me feel less alone in this crowded, raucous world. I hope even my simple comment here helps you also feel less alone.
It definitely did help me feel less alone, thank you! The world can feel crowded and loud. It wears me out. But I know the act of gently defying it through my words and actions is something I don't want to give up on. Thanks for the encouragement! I'm glad you're here ❤️
That movie took my breath away! I cried, but I held back from the ugly crying I felt coming on for the sake of my kid 😅 I might need to see it again by myself and just let that movie heal me a bit.
I know what you mean. I didn't want to sob in the theatre but I came this 🤏🏻 close to full blown crying. It was a healing experience for sure!